Today is the last day of my 30 day challenge! I’m not sure who’s more excited, me, having gone through this test of endurance with a nearly perfect record (30/31), or you, having been forced to read all of this dribble. If you have actually made it through all of the previous entries, or even just a couple, I want to thank you. I know my writing can be redundant, juvenile, illogical, or just plain uninteresting. And I appreciate you sticking with me as I continue to practice and get the kinks out. But one thing I can say with pride is that I have been honest here! No pandering. And I have been persistent, but that probably doesn’t matter much to you, but it’s good for my self-esteem. I (almost) did it! Anyway, thanks again for your continued support, and now back to our regularly scheduled program. That was so corny, I still wonder where my “writing voice” comes from sometimes. I’m sorry.
Today’s topic is all about how we take in information. And if there is a point where you start to see diminishing returns. I am a little paranoid about this subject since I always feel like I don’t retain as much as I should when I read, listen, watch, anything basically. I don’t have a photographic memory. So I’m kind of a leaky bucket. Which reminds me of my days working on games. We were always hesitant to invest more into a leaky bucket because of the lack of efficiency. But I don’t practice what I preach in my personal life, where the investment is time taking in more information. I just keep pouring more water in, more and more to try and keep the bucket full. Is it worth it? What’s the point? I’m starting to feel like nihilism and or fatalism are persistent themes in my writing. I need to cheer up! Let’s get started.
I was just thinking about today’s subject. Actually, this is a little embarrassing, I was trying to come up with a clever tweet about it. I’m been trying to get a little more active on twitter, and a few other social media platforms too. I exist, notice me! And I want other people who I may reach out to cold to have some reference, just so they see that I’m actually a real person. This series of writings is another illustration actually! Ok, but I digress. Today’s subject is does any of this even matter? Why get bent out of shape? My initial, unscripted response would be no, none of it matters. What you do or don’t do isn’t going to materially shift the events of the world, or the place of the world in the universe for the most part. And I am not advocating for complete anarchy and chaos to be clear – I do not condone anyone harming another person. But if you stay neutral, don’t bother anyone else, who cares? What you accomplish or don’t, does it really make a difference? I guess that would be my most honest answer to the question but I think there are holes. Let’s get into it.
I was actually thinking about this exact question earlier this morning before I checked what the prompt for today was. So I have a little bit of a head start, not in terms of actual words on paper, but at least in terms of what I want to cover.
I technically have what I said I wanted? That’s strange to think about, and of course it would depend on your starting point. And perhaps that’s the best place to start, with an acknowledgment that what you want is always in flux. So if someone asks you what you want, I can come up with an answer, but is it likely to hold true if you asked me to come back to it five years down the line? I doubt it!
Today’s topic is status symbols and how we use them as human beings. And maybe if you take it a level down, is it a strike against your character if you knowingly use them? And is it even possible to avoid using them even if you want to? I touched on this a little bit yesterday, but there’s more to be said. I go back and forth on this subject, just like everything else if you’ve been reading these entries. Let’s get started.
Today we’re going to talk about minimalism! Which might also touch on anti-consumerism in general. And will definitely touch on framing as well. So were covering some of my favorite topics to think and write about, and I’m very excited. Much less drab than the run we’ve been on for the last few days. We’re through the self-loathing phase everyone! Thanks for sticking with it.
I’ve seen the word authenticity thrown around a lot. And I think it’s well-intentioned to be clear. But sometimes I turn myself around in circles trying to figure out what it means. How can you differentiate between what is yours, and what is from external sources? Things you’ve absorbed over the years and adopted as your own, maybe even subconsciously. When did you start being yourself? And has there ever been a time when you were purely authentic? Like I said, starting to think about this stuff can take you pretty deep into a rabbit hole. And it usually ends up with me being more confused than I was at the start. Well that’s a great introduction, let’s get into it!
Not that any of the other entries in this series have been especially profound, but today’s topic struck me as extremely obvious. But having said that, it didn’t really dawn upon me for the first 30+ years of my life, so maybe reading about it might prove useful for some of you. That’s the hope anyway.
We’re in the middle of a string of self-loathing prompts! I must not have felt great about myself when I was writing these. Identity, fear of judgment, and today another big one, indecisiveness! I referred to this trait as paralysis by analysis, which is a term we used to through around a lot during my working days. And it has plagued me for years, as far back as I can remember actually. That’s not to say I’m not working on it, but it is slow going, maybe a two-steps forward and one step back type thing. Let’s get into it.
Today’s topic is judgement. I wanted to write about it because fear of being judged is something that weighs on me constantly. But maybe we should expand the scope the of the entry to me passing judgement too, in addition to receiving it. To be clear, I am fully convinced that neither, judging nor being judged, is a good use of attention or energy. Nothing ground breaking there. But yet again, I know something is against my interest yet I do it anyway. Frustrating. Is this what they mean when “human nature” is thrown around?